I’m sure some of you read my testimony about panic attacks.  


After I graduated from high school, I was on my way to work and while at a stoplight my world turned upside down.  I experienced my first (of many) terrifying panic attacks.  Everything was spinning, I was hyperventilating, my heart was racing — IT WAS HORRIBLE.  I must have been rolling around or something because the family in the car next to me looked at me in horror.  (I don’t know what they saw.)   


I worked in a college town and had to stop at MANY stoplights.  I panicked at each stoplight!  That made each ride to work and home a “fun” experience.  It was terrifying and I had no idea I was dealing with demons.  I didn’t know what was going on.  I attended a traditional southern church and didn’t know anything about a demon other than I thought they were in hell.  (The bible states in Ephesians that satan is the prince of the air.  Where is the air?  The air is in our atmosphere.)

Ephesians 2:2
… in which you once walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit who now works in the sons of disobedience …

That was just the beginning of my many years of pure torture.  Zanax didn’t help — depression meds made me feel like I was having an out-of-body experience so I wouldn’t take them … NOTHING BROUGHT RELIEF.

In my desperation I began sleeping with my bible and making my Mom sleep with me (I was 18 years old).  I thought I was dying and losing my mind.  Honestly, I don’t know how I survived those first couple of years.  I couldn’t even attend church anymore because I would feel trapped and panic.  I couldn’t go to restaurants, movies, or even drive my new car.  My parents also worked in the same town, so my Mom would take me to work.  I would even panic riding WITH someone.  It was pure torment from hell.  I HATE THE DEVIL.   He really did try to steal my mind/sanity.   I was a prisoner in my own home.  I couldn’t leave (agoraphobia is what they called it) and I didn’t find any relief there either.  NOBODY in my life had a clue about spiritual things.  I didn’t even know a pastor who had a clue about such things.  (How incredibly sad.)

To make a long story much shorter (trust me, I’m skipping some things), I began to learn about my authority as a believer by watching Kenneth and Gloria Copeland.  I would sit with my bible in front of me and take notes on each page.  (This is how I learned so many spiritual principles.  I saw the TRUTH in the Word of God.) 

I wrote scriptures about my authority on note cards and would speak those scriptures out loud and use the Word as my sword.  I would bind those demons in the Name of Jesus!  (And they would be bound!)

1 Corinthians 14:2
For he who speaks in a tongue does not speak to men but to God, for no one understands him; however, in the spirit he speaks mysteries.

When I received my prayer language, I was able to pray GOD’S WILL without satan interfering.  I was speaking to GOD.


While in this prayer team, people began to go through deliverance.  I was afraid of deliverance because I had a demon of FEAR (ha).  I eventually fled from that prayer team because of the FEAR!  Finally, once I truly HAD ENOUGH, I got serious about making those tormenting spirits leave.  My determination outweighed the fear.


I was living a “normal” life (and was actually attending college while married), but I could always hear the tormenting thoughts, “You’re going to have a panic attack … blah blah blah” — stinking lying demons.  I can’t stand them.   Earlier that week, God had given me Isaiah 52, but I didn’t understand what He was trying to tell me.  One morning while preparing for school I was watching Benny Hinn.  (You all can say what you want about him, but God used him to set me free.)  Guess what — HE WAS TEACHING ON ISAIAH 52!  The blinders fell off of my mind and I was able to understand.  God was wanting to set me free.  One of the scriptures in Isaiah 52 talks about how the enemy howls in laughter at me (argh).  THAT DID IT!  I said, “I don’t know how you’re leaving, but YOU ARE LEAVING!  You are coming out!  I mean it!  I don’t care how, but you are OUT IN JESUS’ NAME!”  At the end of the broadcast, Benny asked for people to come to the TV as an act of faith and touch the screen.  As I began to walk towards my TV I heard screaming in my mind, “NO!  DON’T TOUCH THAT TV!  NO!  DON’T DO IT!”  The moment I touched that TV my heart began to race and I felt them leave.  I looked in the mirror and for the first time I didn’t see something in my eyes looking back at me.  All I could see in my eyes was LOVE.   That is just one story, but the first about deliverance.

Second — healing.  I suffered from back pain and severe muscle spasm for years after I married.  They were bad enough that the rescue squad had to come get me once and other times I was bedridden for a week at a time.  I was a young woman suffering yet again.  For many years, I would crawl on my knees to make up my bed each morning.  Anyway — as before — years had passed and I was at a Women’s Aglow meeting.  The speaker was praying for people to be healed.  I went running up there.  I told him I had lower back issues.  He said, “Sit in this chair and put your legs out in front of you.”  He put his fingers on my ankles and showed me how much shorter my left leg was compared to my right.   (I knew that was the case because I had been to see an orthopedic surgeon and he told me the same thing.)  The speaker, Jimmy Newton, commanded my left leg to grow and I FELT IT in my femur.  It grew!  That was back in 2003 and I haven’t had back problems since.  I give God all of the glory!  Thankfully, I have also commanded legs to grow and backs to straighten in Jesus’ Name and I have seen God change people’s bodies.

Revelation 12:11
They triumphed over him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony.

If I had listened to all of the well meaning Christians who said that tongues weren’t for today, or that healing wasn’t for today — I’d still be a slave to fear and a prisoner.  I don’t even know if I’d still be here.  I couldn’t have lived in that bondage forever.  


You believe what God’s Word says and never let a man tell you anything that goes against the Word of the Living God.


THERE IS FREEDOM FOR YOU!  God is no respecter of people.  What He did for me, He will do for you!


God bless you!

This youtube must be from the 80’s, but I love this song: