Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.
It was during the darkest time of my life that I stumbled upon this scripture. I was 18 and suddenly my entire world was flipped upside down. I couldn’t live a normal life any longer and I didn’t know what had hit me. Out of nowhere I started having panic attacks. I went from a carefree teenager to someone covered by a cloud of darkness, fear, and bondage. I lost all peace and was tormented day and night.
I was a Christian.
I had accepted Jesus as my Savior at age 11, but had lived a very worldly life as a teen. I had opened a lot of ungodly spiritual doors without knowing or understanding there were spiritual consequences in our lives. Just as Joyce Meyer said, “I had enough of Jesus to get into heaven, but not enough of Him to walk in victory!” <—- Tweet this by clicking here.
It was then that I grasped for help, truth, relief … I felt like I was losing my sanity and God was my ONLY hope. My parents didn’t know how to help me and I had absolutely no spiritual mentors in my life. The only adults in my life were from traditional churches and they didn’t understand spiritual warfare. The only way my parents knew to help was to send me to a psychiatrist who placed me on Zanax. (Guess, what — that didn’t help either and actually made things worse.)
During that season I began to read God’s Word and devour it. Kenneth and Gloria Copeland’s ministry came on TV each morning and by the grace of God it caught my attention. It was there that I learned the truth that I was being attacked by a spirit of fear — a demon. Back then I just thought demons were in hell with satan. I didn’t realize how involved they are in our lives today.
It was through the Copeland’s ministry that I learned my authority as a believer and that I had authority over the demons tormenting me. During that season of drinking in the Word of God I learned the scripture from Hebrews 4:16!
Honestly, it still amazes me if I stop to think about it all. The God of all creation allows ME — someone who has been full of sin throughout my life — to approach HIM with boldness and confidence. Wow. What mercy and grace our Father has for us! I don’t know about you, but I am grateful for the blood that Jesus shed on the cross for me. It is only because of His blood that I can be in relationship with God the Father.
If you were raised by a critical parent, you may view your Heavenly Father as a critical parent too — not welcoming your presence at His Throne.
May I tell you as one who has overcome a LOT?
God’s Word is truth.
What we see isn’t necessarily true. What we feel is often deceptive. But no matter what – God’s Word is true! When we read in Hebrews 4 that we may approach God, then know that you can. We can run to Him.
I hope this encourages someone today!
Oh, and for those who may be new here, there is a happy ending to the struggles with that demon of fear. God set me free! I had to stand on God’s Word and resist that demon to break free. But I am free and no longer feel that torment of anxiety and terrible foreboding. If I can help you, please let me know. What God did for me He will do for you.
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